You try to say the Name correctly — louder, clearer, more precisely — and without noticing you put yourself at the center, as if the Name were waiting for you to become worthy of it. Gurudev turns this around: "I cannot chant the Holy Name — Holy Name chant me," the same way the guru watches you before you manage to see him, the way prasadam tastes you before you taste it. Picture an open palm lying still while a vast hand of light bends down toward it from above — the palm does not need to reach, only to stay open. Drop your shoulders, loosen your fingers around the beads.