All genuine bhajana is performed in jīvana-sandhi — right at the junction of life and death. You can study and make plans as if you'll live forever, but when you sit down with the Name, remember: Yamaraja already holds you by the neck and is about to pull you into the next world. This isn't gloom — it's a sobriety that instantly burns away complacency. When you chant a mantra as though it might be the last of your life, the rush to "finish the rounds" disappears, and a sincerity arrives that cannot be faked.